Well, I have a little life update to share. It’s not that I’ve been hiding it or ashamed of it even, it’s just that it’s not typically the thing you shout from the rooftops or social media platforms for that matter. It’s been almost a month to the day that I was let go from my full-time PR job. It’s been a really strange, interesting, awesome and eye-opening experience for me. I think this quote below really sums it up well.
I went through different phases. There was the initial shock – like holy cow did that just happen? Then there was a little sadness since I had some great friends at that office. I actually didn’t despise going to work like some people in life do and I was able to do some cool things! It think it’s best to describe it as a roller coaster of feelings. There are moments where I am bursting with ambition and motivation to try something completely different and start a new career in a different industry and others where I am scared to do that and consider taking a job that I know can do. There are also moments where I feel like a loser. I’ve actually cried to Andrew one night apologizing for being the loser in relationship (for those survivor fans out there – I’m just going to throw it back to the scene where Kat is quoted by saying “who would want to date someone who doesn’t make the merge?”). It’s also been interesting to observe people’s reactions when I share my news – some people are easy breezy about it and others, which I find entertaining, are REALLY concerned and upset for me but in reality it’s not like I was diagnosed with cancer – it’s just one of life’s twists and turns. I like to think that I’m a really open person and am up for experiencing all that life has to offer. I am however, in a very supportive situation – I say this every day (even before I was laid off) “I am so lucky to have married Andrew”. He’s just the best in so many ways and am still shocked that he wants to continue the rest of his life with me. Love you babe!
I am a HUGE believer in things happening for a reason (I actually just came back from Joe Fresh and there was this faux-fur leopard coat that I had been eyeing for a little while and it had been marked down to an amazing $29 from $189 – it was meant to be) and that things happen for a reason. Even if that reason isn’t something you can witness immediately but down the road it becomes quite clear. There are a million things that I want to do with my new found freedom and time and they span from going on a yoga retreat on my own somewhere warm and tropical to getting that coat altered that has been in my closet for close to a year since I now have the day time available when the seamstress is open. It’s also shockingly insane how days can go by and fill up so quickly that I wonder how I ever did have a full-time job? Gym at noon – sounds good to me. I’m nervous and optimistic about the future but mostly just excited to see what happens – cheers to new beginnings (no seriously, I’m going to pour myself a glass of wine because it’s Wednesday baby and I’m alive!).